its been a very long time since i have had so much drama in my life. i feel like i need to remove myself from the situation at hand. im going to take a breather and hopefully spend sometime with family and get my priorities in check. But mainly i cant help but feel its my fault everytmie something like this happens and i become extremly sad. so i need to take a breather and bring myself to a healthy state of mind.

But mainly i feel like i cant trust many people even when they are good friends. mostly because of my past, and i know i should forget the past and move on… but i cant ignore the signs. i just dont know what to do anymore i feel like im always being watched, and im always being judged and to behonest i really wish i could fall asleep and not wake up. im tired of crying and im tired of walking on egg shells.

</3 lost and confused i dont know what to do anymore. this interpersonal communications class bs just isnt cutting it anymore.